Kevin lay there holding her until
she feel asleep from exhaustion. Slowly and carefully
he backed out of the bunk. The guys were waiting
for him and he knew that. Kevin walked to the kitchen
area and grabbed a drink. Quietly he shuffled to
the seating area in the back. He frowned slightly
thinking that he could have held her on this bed instead
of that tiny bunk. Kevin sat down on the couch, put
his head back, and closed his eyes. He needed to
think, but he knew the questions would start soon.
They cared about Bron as much as he did.
“Is it over?” he heard Nick ask.
Kevin opened his eyes but didn’t
move from his position. “Not by a long shot Kaos,”
he answered him.
“What do you mean? He’s going to
jail. He can’t hurt her anymore.” Nick continued.
“Webster called Jake and said that Bron might not
even have to testify.”
Kevin sat there, there is so much
he doesn’t know or understand, he reflected. I don’t
how to explain this to him. He didn’t see what happened
today. He didn’t see the terror, and fear in her
eyes. He didn’t see her blank expression. He doesn’t
know much about the details of what happened or about
the nightmares. Kevin sighed, I have to stop playing
shrink before it kills her.
Mary knew that Kevin wasn’t in any
shape to explain all of this to the fellas. “Nick,
even though he is in jail and can’t hurt her. Bron
has a lot of internal things to deal with,” she said.
Mary figured it was enough information for now. If
Kevin wanted the guys to know more, he would tell
“Huh?” Nick questioned the answer.
A.J. was trying real hard not to
get pissed at Nick for continuing, “Christ Nick,
she’s been through a lot of shit. She has to sort
Nick was slightly embarrassed, “Oh.”
“Mare, what do we do now?” Kevin
asked, lifting his head off the couch and sipping
his drink. He couldn’t think anymore, he needed help.
Mary shrugged her shoulders. “Depends
on how she handles it. She’ll sulk or get mad. I
just hope…” Mary paused. No, I don’t hope, I pray
she doesn’t do this to herself again.
“Hope what Mary?” Kevin asked.
“That she doesn’t close herself off
again,” Mary sighed.
This time it was Kevin’s turn to
be confused. Jake looked at Mary and shook his head
up and down. Mary answered with a no.
Kevin saw Jake get extremely angry
very quickly. “Neither one of you told him. Did
you?” he frowned at Mary. Mary lowered her head and
looked at the floor.
“Fine then I will. Kevin the day
after Bron buried C.W. she deep sixed it…” Kevin’s
eyes open wide and his eyebrows went up.
“Jake,” Mary growled at him.
“He needs to know,” Jake glared at
her. Mary got up and walked up to the kitchen. I’m
not telling him she thought.
“Explain Jake,” Kevin spoke as he
narrowed his eyes at Mary’s back. What the hell did
she not tell me?
“She closed up, tuned herself off.
Shut the world out.” Jake said as he glared at Mary
also. This was too important to keep hidden from
Kevin. Mary should have told him to begin with.
She wasn’t there but she knew about it.
“Oh God, I thought I was getting
so close,” Kevin groaned.
The boys sat there without saying
a word. They were stunned that Mary would hold stuff
back from Kevin; after all, they were supposedly working
together. Especially A.J., who was even getting pissed
at her now.
Mary walked back and sat down. Kevin
looked at her. “Are you afraid that she might do
that again?” he asked softly.
Mary stared at the floor, the tension
and the anger in the room was almost bouncing off
the bus walls. “Yes, look at her reaction upstairs
with Mc. She’s already started I think.” She answered
“So what do we do?” Brian asked.
“Be there if she wants to talk,”
“That’s easy,” Brian, answered her.
Mary looked at Brian and began to
speak, “Not as easy as you think. She may want to
talk about what Lenny did to her.”
Kevin jumped up from the couch, stalked
up to the kitchen, and sat in the booth by himself.
Mary looked at the boys, “If he can’t handle it you’re
going to have to help him too.”
Mary walked back up and sat across
from Kevin. “Maybe I should send her home for awhile,”
he spoke to the window.
Mary thought about it for a minute,
“Not a good idea. You will send her right back in
time, back to all the misery in that house that he
“Hmm,” he mused out loud. She’s
“Besides last time she couldn’t function.
Jake and her sister in law were there and they took
care of Bounce. Mc too. That is why Jake is so upset
with me. I heard about it, he lived it. She didn’t
get out of bed for days on end. She wouldn’t sleep
or eat.” Mary watched for his reaction as he looked
out the window.
Kevin let the remarks settle in his
mind and then began to speak. “So what do I do?
This is hard. I’m trying to perform, do interviews,
and wear a public face. Plus the new record label.”
Mary was afraid now, “Kevin, Mc came
to me this morning. He said he asked you if you could
handle this. You can’t walk away now.”
Kevin shook his head, “Mare, I wouldn’t
walk away from Bron. I’m just really worried that
we went to far. If you had told me this last night,
none of this would have happened this morning.”
Mary looked at him, “I know that,
that is why we decided not to tell you. I’m glad
Jake overstepped his bounds and called Solarez. I
think Mc thought that is what he would do. Jake will
go to the ends of the earth for Bron. They have known
each other since junior high.”
Kevin looked at Mary with a slight
grin, “You’re one smart cookie, lady.”
Their conversation was interrupted
by Bron screams echoing through the bus. “Shit!”
Kevin jumped up and ran to the bunk.
Pulling back the curtain, he saw
she was still sleeping but lost in her nightmare.
“Hey Bron, come on darlin’, wake up,” as he gently
tried to stop her from thrashing around in the bunk.
She was fighting Lenny off her in her dream. Bron’s
eyes flew open they were full of terror.
He heard Mary whisper, “She’s not
awake, she’s still sleeping.” Kevin didn’t notice
that the aisle was filled behind him with his brothers,
who were watching Bron.
“Bron, come on darlin’ please wake
up.” He shook her and she screamed at him, “Don’t
touch me!” Kevin dropped his head.
Mary pulled his hand away from her.
“Let her go,” Mary told him.
“No,” was Kevin’s answer to her plea.
“Yes, maybe it will help.” Mary
motioned everyone back to their seats, including Kevin.
Mary closed the curtain and sat in the bunk below
They all sat and listened to her
screaming, talking, and crying in her nightmare.
Nick couldn’t handle it and began to cry. Brian got
up, walked over, and gave him hug. “This is terrible,”
he said to Brian.
“Yeah, it is,” Brian answered him.
Kevin sat on the couch tears sliding down his face.
Everyone was shaken and horrified to hear what Bron
By the time they had reached Detroit
there wasn’t a dry eye on the bus. Bron came in and
out of her nightmare. When she finally woke up, she
lay in the bunk. Kevin checked on her and then bolted
off the bus. This was all his fault. The guilt was
too much for him to handle as he saw the state she
was in. Mary looked at the boys and Brian and Howie
took off after him. Nick walked back to Bron’s bunk
and began to talk to her. She immediately rolled
on her side with her back to him.
Nick walked away silently, and off
the bus. Mary nodded to A.J. and he followed Nick.
The bus was parked at the venue since
they were going to have to do a quick out. They had
a long drive to Minneapolis. Jake and Mary sat on
the bus. Somebody brought them some food with a note.
The note was from Alex saying I thought you guys would
be hungry. Mary walked back to the bunk and Bron
was lying there gazing at the ceiling. “Come on,
you need to eat.” Bron didn’t answer and again rolled
on her side away from Mary.
Kevin was pacing the dressing room
and then the greeting room. The boys watched him
skulk as he waited for Bron. He was torn up at her
being like this and was blaming himself for it. The
show went on and with no appearance of Jake, Mary,
Bron heard footsteps on the bus and
closed her eyes.
The curtain opened and he was there.
She’s sleeping he thought. That’s good. Kevin went
and sat in the back with Alex and Mary. They all
drifted off to sleep except for two people. Bron
crawled out of the bunk and slipped her sneakers on.
She went and sat at the kitchen area. Jake joined
her in a few seconds. “Bron please don’t do this
again,” he begged her. Bron never responded to him
or looked at him. He sat up for the ride to Minneapolis.
Kevin woke as the bus pulled into
the hotel. Bron was sitting at the table. He walked
up and brushed her cheek with his hand. “How are
you feeling?” he asked her. Bron stood up and walked
to the bunk. She crawled in and turned to face the
“Dammit!” Kevin yelled as he barreled
off the bus with his duffel. A.J. had woken up earlier
but decided not to approach Bron. Hearing Kevin yell
he immediately followed him off the bus.
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