Bron watched Kevin leave and then
she got up and went to lie on the couch. I can’t
lay in that bed again. If I do I will fall asleep.
If I sleep the nightmares will come back. Everyone
will hear it again. I don’t want them to hear it
anymore. Bron rolled on her side and stared at the
back of the couch. Oh God I want to go home. I want
Mc to come get me. I want Bounce with me.
Kevin was getting angrier with every
step he made. He was being shadowed by his friends
and felt suffocated. He couldn’t think. He didn’t
know why she was doing this to herself. She refused
any communication with him physical and otherwise.
She hadn’t slept in nine days nor had she eaten.
She’s wasting away in front of me and it’s my fault.
He ended his conversation in his head as he walked
into A.J.’s suite followed by the fellas. Kevin spun
on his heel and turned. “Will you people leave me
alone!” he bellowed at the three following him.
A simple “No,” came from the far
side of the room, from A.J. Kevin exploded throwing
things, tipping things over, and pounding his fist
into anything he could that wasn’t human.
“Feeling better?” Brian asked.
“A little,” Kevin answered with a
Brian shook his head as he surveyed
the now trashed room. “Kev, when is the last time
Bron slept?” Brian asked.
Kevin couldn’t bring himself to say
what he had said in his own head, “Chicago.”
“Nine days hmmm,” Brian answered
as though he already knew the answer.
“Eaten?” Brian asked pushing Kevin
to answer. Kevin needed to acknowledge that his partner
needed some help from someone besides him.
“Same,” Kevin huffed at him, as his
anger was beginning to simmer again.
Brian deliberated about his next
question but figured he would have to change it.
Kevin would go postal at being question on something
so personal as to when was the last time they were
together. “Spoke to you?”
Kevin glared at Brian, “Stop making
me repeat myself. You’re pissing me off.”
Brian flashed Kevin a big grin, “Good.
Are you mad enough now to take care of her?”
Nick looked at Kevin, “You caused
this mess playing shrink with Mary and now you have
to fix it.”
Kevin looked at both of them and
Brian spoke first. “Bron needs to get some sleep
and to eat. I think maybe you need to force the issue
and talk to Mary. Stop kicking yourself in the ass
for what you did and take care of it.”
It took a minute for Kevin to understand
Brian’s obscure remark and then it hit him. “You’re
right,” as he turned to A.J.
“I don’t know if that is a good idea
Brian,” A.J. looked at everyone glaring at him. “Fine
I’ll go get her, she’s down the hall.” A.J. shrugged
his shoulders. He knew this was going to be ugly.
When he came back he had Mary with him.
Kevin bit the side of his bottom
lip and then spoke, “Why isn’t she sleeping?” Kevin
asked her as the fellas started to leave.
Mary turned to Brian, Howie, and
Nick, “Wait! This has to do with you I think. She’s
afraid to sleep. She afraid of the nightmares, but
more importantly she’s afraid they will hear her again.
Bron is ashamed of herself and blames herself for
“No way!” Howie exclaimed.
“It wasn’t her fault!” Nick yelled.
No one was shocked by Nick’s reaction anymore. Everyone
knew that he had feelings for Bron that he tried to
“We know that Nick but sometimes
they feel they brought it on themselves. They did
something wrong or forgot to do something.” Mary
“DAMMIT!” Kevin yelled and then
sighed. By doing what he had done, he had a feeling
he triggered her guilt all over again. “Eating?”
he looked at Mary with his question.
“Might make her sleepy,” Mary replied.
“Me?” Kevin said softly.
Mary shook her head, “I don’t know,
either she is mad at you but doesn’t have the energy
to fight with you or she is still ashamed. I am leaning
towards her being ashamed. Bronwyn has a lot of pride.”
“She needs to sleep,” Nick stated.
Mary looked at him, “I know Nick.
I can help her with that but I know she won’t let
Kevin raised his head at Mary and
looked at her incredulously.
“Sedative, but it would knock her
out for a couple of days,” Mary answered his unasked
A pensive look crossed Kevin’s face.
He exhaled deeply and began to think to himself.
I don’t want to force her again but if I do at least
maybe she would get some rest. He couldn’t stand
this empty shell he was dragging around with him and
he was responsible for it. Kevin looked at Mary still
unsure of his decision. Finally he spoke, “Need some
Mary smiled soothingly knowing this
was hard a decision for him to make. But medically
Bron need food and rest, she would do neither at the
rate she was going. “I could use it. The delivery
method is not on her list of favorites,” Mary answered
“Get what you need. You guys stay
here,” Kevin announced and then left. He walked down
to the suite and she was lying on the couch. “You
need to sleep,” he said to her as he walked to her.
As he stood over her, next to the
couch Bron got a sinking feeling in the pit of her
stomach. Bron rolled away from him to face the back
of the couch. Kevin watched Mary come in out of the
corner of his eye and Jake leave.
“Bronwyn, Mary’s going to give you
something to so you can sleep,” he spoke to her back.
“NO SHE ISN’T!” was the first word
she had spoken to him in days. The words were spoken
with defiance and determination. She wasn’t going
to sleep, the nightmare would come back and someone
would hear her.
“Yes she is!” as he grabbed her arms
and dragged her off the couch heading to the bedroom.
“No I don’t want to,” she screamed.
The scream was echoed down the hall due to its volume.
“I don’t want to sleep,” she cried. Bron put what
little energy she had into trying to punch and kick
It wasn’t that hard for him to tolerate
the blows, Bron didn’t have that much energy left.
He never said a word as he forced her through the
bedroom door throwing her on the bed and sitting on
“Stop it,” she cried. “I don’t want
to sleep. Please Kevin no sleep.” She begged him
as he rolled her on her stomach and placed his hands
on her shoulder blades then shoving her into the mattress.
“Sorry darlin it’s not your decision
anymore. This is going to stop,” as he grabbed the
waistband of her sweats and pulled it down slightly.
Mary came out of nowhere and the next thing heard
was Bron yelling “Owww,” as she felt a sharp piercing
“I’m sorry darlin’,” he spoke as
Mary walked away. He started to rub Bron’s back and
Mary flashed him five fingers as she went and sat
in the chair.
“I hate you. This isn’t right,”
she screamed trying to roll over. Kevin refused too
let her turn he didn’t want to see the hurt in her
“Bron stop. You don’t hate me and
you know it. I am not going to stand by and watch
you kill yourself.” Kevin barked at her. Bron quieted
and softly started to cry. Slowly he got off her
and sat down on the edge of the bed. He pulled her
up by her waist and sat her in his lap. “Baby you
have to sleep,” he said as he lightly stroked her
“I don’t want to sleep,” she said
with tears in her eyes.
“Why?” he asked her.
“The nightmares will come back.
Everyone will hear me. They are already ashamed of
me. They’ll hate me even more,” she babbled out.
Kevin sighed, Mary was right. “No
one will hear you. It’s just you and me for a couple
of days. The fellas could never hate you. They love
Slowly he began to rock her in his
arms and hum softly to her. Mary sat watching as
Bron’s body starting to relax from the effects of
the sedative. Mary wanted to leave and not interrupt
the two of them, but it was such a large dose she
was afraid to.
Kevin raised his head and started
to speak. Mary raised her index finger to her lips
and he didn’t say another word.
Both of them watched as Bron was
fighting it but slowly she started to give in, her
eyes fluttered closed, and her head dropped to Kevin’s
shoulder. Kevin sighed loudly as he set her on the
Mary walked over and pulled the blankets
back on the other side of the bed. She then went
to the nearest suitcase and grabbed one of Kevin’s
Kevin began to undress Bron. He
pulled her socks and sweats off as Mary came over
and handed him the shirt. After removing her shirt
and bra he replaced it with his shirt. Picking her
up he carried her to the other side of the bed. He
set her down, pulled the blankets over her, and tucked
her in, much the way you would a small child. He
kissed her cheek. “You can hate me when you wake
up, but I love you. I’ll be back in a little while.”
Kevin walked back into the suite and Jake was there.
He nodded to Jake and walked out the door.
Jake stood in the doorway of the
bedroom for a minute watching Mary tend to Bron.
Mary wanted to double check Bron’s vitals before she
left. Mary looked up at Jake, “God Jake I hated doing
Jake looked at her with a forgiving
smile, “Almost as much as he did. It’s okay Mary
both of you did the right thing.”
Mary stood up and watched Bron as
she finally slept. Jake walked up and gave Mary a
hug and it confused her for a minute. Jake grinned
at her. “You don’t know this, but you have saved
her from herself. You weren’t there last time. It
was horrible. Thank you so much.”
Mary smiled back, “Thank you I feel
much better hearing that coming from you. Mc is going
to be furious at Kevin and I.”
Jake squeezed Mary even harder, “No.
He would have done the same thing for his little girl.
Why don’t you go and I’ll stay with her. It doesn’t
look like she is going to wake up anytime soon. Take
Bron’s key in case the door is locked and you need
to get in here to see her.”
Mary looked at Jake; she had finally
won Jake’s trust back. “Thanks,” as she grabbed the
key and left.
Jake played door attendant the rest
of the day. Everyone was checking on Bron. The only
ones that didn’t need a key were Kevin and Mary.
Finally Jake just left the door to the suite open.
The boys had interviews and work to be done and they
had to leave soon. Mary reassured Kevin constantly
as he would show up at the door every now and then
and check on Bron. Nobody was allowed to venture
into the bedroom, but they were allowed to check with
After the day was done dinner was
ordered in and eaten in Kevin’s room. Mary had to
smile slightly and Jake was grinning. They both knew
that Kevin and Bron had more support than either of
Kevin sat at the table and looked
at Brian, “I should call Mc.” Brian nodded a yes.
Jake turned to Kevin, “You don’t have to. I already
did and he is fine with it.”
Kevin smiled, “Thanks.”
“I figured you had enough to deal
with. You didn’t need him on your ass too. But so
you know he wanted to know what took you so long,”
Kevin laughed for the first time
in days, “Blame Brian he was the slow thinker.”
“Hey, She’s your girlfriend.” Brian
Howie watched Kevin finally relax
and it was getting late. “Come on guys let’s get
going.” Without a word the rest of the group stood
up, said there good nights, and left. Mary stayed
behind with Alex.
Mary went in and checked on Bron
again. Kevin came in and Mary left the bedroom.
Mary, A.J., and Jake stood in the suite for a minute.
They heard a loud deep sigh come from the bedroom
as the door was left slightly open.
Jake smirked at Mary, “I think they
both will sleep better tonight.”
“I hope so,” A.J. added. “He’s been
a real ass, since she got sick.”
In the bedroom Kevin settled next
to Bron. He watched her for a minute and then pulled
her into a spoon. “I love you Witch. Sweet dreams,
baby.” A contented sigh escaped him as he drifted
off to sleep.
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