found herself watching him, amused, because he had grown a
goatee. When had it happened? When had Nick Carter become
been around him for years…well over three. When they first met
he was a goofy 17 year old boy, all arms and feet. His sudden
growth spurt had taken him by surprise, so he was not use to
his size and it made him clumsy. She was only 2 years older,
but felt like his protector.
Brian had been the bane of her existence at times. Other times
they made her laugh when she needed to most.
met them all through a friend of a friend. She liked all of
them, but Kevin with his dark hair and green eyes had captured
her attention immediately. She was always a sucker for guys
who looked like Kevin. Unfortunately, Kristin was always in
the picture one way or the other. When they were apart Kevin
was only seeking friendship.
hard truth was she wasn't his type. Kevin always went for the
willowy ones, not a lot of chest, but with legs that went on
for days. She had too much of the former and not enough of the
latter. Nope, she was short and cute. When they met she was
pudgy, but through the years she had toned and shaped her body.
She just hadn't successfully added those additional 6" to her
legs. So she contented herself with being a buddy to all the
her, so why was she now noticing Nick? She remembered the first
time she realized he was growing up. She had taken some vacation
time and met up with the guys when they were rehearsing for
the Millennium Tour in Nashville. She was talking with the Arena's
security one day when Nick walked in from the loading docks.
He was heading for the stage. He had taken a break to talk with
Leighanne, Mandy and the wardrobe people. She watched Nick walked
through the backstage area. He had a quiet confidence she had
not picked up on before. It was then that she realized he was
losing the "boy" in him. It was as simple as the way he moved.
He had grown into his body.
had not been prepared for the change. They teased him about
his weight. She had tried to shield him from the stuff out on
the web. What he did see hurt him, but nothing like when the
guys teased him. She had only seen him break down twice. Once
he admitted that it hurt in an interview. The second time was
at her place after a particularly bad day. The guys had been
razzing him then Mandy let loose on him. She had stepped in
then. She talked to the other guys. They would answer to her
if they ever brought the subject up again. They didn't believe
her until she unloaded a monologue of their faults. She never
said anything to Mandy, because it would only make things worse
for Nick. The night he was at her place she had held him and
told him everything good about him.
was watching him again. It was his 21st birthday and he was
so happy. The guys had sung the National Anthem at the Super
Bowl Game. After the game, friends had gathered for a party.
Nick had his first legal drink in the states. He was currently
opening all his gifts.
staring at him like that and people are going to talk."
Kevin," she replied blushing.
so cute when you blush. Why are you watching him like that,"
how he's changed over the years."
little Nicky is all grown up."
yelled from across the room, using the guys' nickname for her.
for the games!"
Nickers," she replied.
he loves ya. Right," asked Kevin.
hope you all do. I'm mean I gave up my job and will be in close
quarters with you guys for the next year."
And you gave up a job you hate," he answered, letting his comment
about Nick go.
Thanks. I think you're wife is looking for you."
go. Talk to you later K."
the top of her head and wandered over to Kristin. She realized
it no longer hurt to see them together. As a matter of fact
it hadn't hurt in a long time. Suddenly she was being pulled
to her feet.
but if you step on my toes, I'm gone," she teased.
his eyes and pulled her to the dance floor. While they danced,
she recalled the next time it hit her Nick was a man. It was
during a show late in the Millennium tour. During "It's Gotta
Be You." Nick was standing in front of her seat. He looked at
her and moved his hips. She couldn't help it, she laughed. He
paused then he got a very serious and very unchildlike look
in his eyes. He moved his hips more suggestively. She just looked
at him. He got that smirk and moved to another part of the stage.
slow one," he said as the tempo of the music slowed.
now I can hold you," he replied, pulling her close and resting
his hands low on her back. She was not prepared for the shot
of electricity the simple statement sent through her body. Man
he had gotten so tall. He was now a good 2" taller than Kevin.
She was content to rest her hands on his biceps and her cheek
against his chest. He leaned down and buried his nose in her
hour the party ended. The boys weren't leaving to start the
tour back up until the next night. She was staying at Nick's,
bcause she had given up her apartment. They drove to Nick's
in the comfortable silence they often had with each other.
again lost in her thoughts. She had been happy when he ended
things with Mandy for good. She had never liked Mandy, but never
voiced this dislike. She tried to convince herself her happiness
was only because Nick was better off. Her best friend said this
left the door open for her. She had denied it. The shock came
a few nights later when she had awakened from a very vivid and
decidedly erotic dream featuring one Nick Carter. She pushed
it to the back of her mind, but couldn't deny her day was always
brighter when he was around.
at the house. Nick let the dogs out before putting them up for
the night. They carried his presents in.
21 year old was it good birthday?"
Now it's time for sleep. See you in the morning."
Dance with me again."
replied, giving him a puzzled look.
as he punched through the presets until he found a slow song.
She stepped into his arms. This time they stared into each other's
eyes. She could tell he was working through something in his
head and waited. She was surprised when he brushed his lips
to hers. He saw the surprise in her eyes when he pulled back.
He caressed her cheek with his fingertips and felt her shiver.
He moved in and kissed her again. This time his lips lingered
until he felt her respond. Her lips parted and he deepened the
kiss. The hand, which was caressing her cheek, slipped into
her hair. One of her hands slid around his waist, the other
went into his hair. He pulled back searching her face.
me," she repeated in complete amazement.
does that surprise you?"
me. You know...your buddy. Everyone's buddy."
but you are more than that to me."
You're one of my best friends, but you're so much more."
her lips again without waiting for a reply. Her mind was spinning
with questions. What did he feel? Where was this going? What
would the others think? The one thing she was clear on was the
fact it felt right to be in Nick's arms.
away from his lips, but moved back in to trace them with her
tongue. Nick's arms tightened around her when she tugged on
his bottom lip before gently sucking on it.
she realized, Nick had lifted her in his arms and was heading
through the darkened house to his bedroom. He gently laying
her down and joining her, their lips immediately reconnecting.
His hands traced a path down between breasts, before sliding
under her sweater to cup her breast. He gently massaged her
through the silky material.
tangled his hair as she placed tiny kisses along his jaw. She
pulled his ear lobe between her teeth and flicked it with the
tip of her tongue, hearing him gasp for air.
tightened on her breast and felt her nipple harden. He wanted
to see what he was touching. He quickly pulled her sweater over
her head and dropped it by the bed.
puzzled when he pulled away from her, but soon knew why he had.
The room was suddenly glowing in soft candlelight.
you had this all planned out," she said as he looked down at
I was prepared," he replied.
at her. The white lace of her bra accentuated her curves, but
he wanted to see more. He smiled when he saw the front clasp.
She watched as he unhooked her bra. Before she could sit up
Nick moved the fabric away from her. His breath caught as he
looked at her laying half dressed on his bed. Her pale skin
seemed to glow in the candlelight.
her nipples harden more as the back of his hand brushed against
them both. He watched her squirm under his intense stare and
leaned down to kiss her.
his tongue to enter her mouth again, but reached for the bottom
of his shirt. She lifted it over his head when their lips parted.
She looked at him. She lightly ran her hands over his chest
and stomach. She then gently traced his tattoos with her fingertips.
still, allowing her to explore. His resolve was fading, because
the sight, feel and smell of her coupled with her feathery touch
was driving him crazy.
up she shrugged off the bra and dropped it by the bed. Her breathing
speed up as she locked eyes with him. Their lips made contact
again and the need took over the gentleness. Her hands slid
up his thigh and cupped him through his pants. His moan was
lost against her lips. She began to undo his pants. He stood
quickly and dropped them to reveal the boxerbriefs underneath.
She stopped him from climbing back onto the bed. In one move
she pull them down until they were lying at his feet. She placed
her palm flat against his stomach to prevent him from lying
down. She looked at him from toe to head and smiled.
I love your body. Now get back in the bed."
he grumbled with a smile.
back and again his hands were on her. His thumbs teasing her
nipples. After a moment his fingers grazed down her stomach.
He stopped to use his index finger to draw a circle around her
belly button. He moved on to trace along the waist of her jeans.
He began to undo them. Once they were off he looked at her again.
He was savoring everything. His licked his lips at he looked
at the single remaining thin, silky piece of material covering
her body. Hooking his thumbs in the elastic at her hips, it
joined the rest of their clothes at the side of the bed. Now
he could really see her.
really are baby."
she said softly.
I'm entitled to my opinion and I think you're beautiful."
silenced her as he moved to balanced on his hands above her
She reached up and pulled his body down on hers, needing to
feel his full weight to make this real. He raised up.
as he requested and felt him straddled her hips. His hands were
in her hair, massaging. He worked his way down her neck and
back. Soon his mouth followed the same path. He slid lower on
her body and his hands went back to work then his lips. He kissed
the arch of each foot. She giggled and squirmed when he kissed
her toes. He smiled and had her turn over. He moved up her body,
but bypassed where she ached. Her chest was rising and falling
rapidly by the time he reached her mouth again.
she whispered, "Nick what are you doing to me?"
love to you," he answered simply.
him move back down her body as it pushed up against him. She
had long since abandoned trying to control her reactions to
him. He kissed the insides of her thighs while moving tolay
between them. He lifted his head and locked eyes with her. He
held her gaze for a moment, before he lowered his mouth and
made contact. Her body arched off the bed and a moan escaped
her lips. He lifted his head again for a moment and smiled when
he saw the reaction he had elicited. His tongue moved the length
of her before dipping inside.
were gripping the sheets. No one had ever been this thorough
in touching her. She gasp when she felt his tongue slip from
her only to be replaced by his fingers. He swirled his tongue
around the sensitive bud above his fingers. She moaned as her
hands found their way into his hair.
caught up in her reactions to him. She arched against his mouth
and fingers as she slipped over the edge.
him moved to his knees between her legs and felt his fingers
leave her body. His eyes held hers as he licked them. She couldn't
explain what seeing him do this did to her. She simply sat up
and pulled his mouth to hers.
you going to do?"
she turned him onto his stomach, exploring his body with the
same care he had used. By the time she reached his feet he had
a firm grip on the headboard. She turned him over and made her
way up to his mouth.
what you do to me," he panted.
has he felt her nipples brush against his skin as she moved
back down his body. She pushed his legs farther apart and traced
the crease where his leg joined his body. His hands were again
gripping the headboard. She watched him as her hand wrapped
around his hardness and began to stroke. Her other hand massaged
him sack. He was pulling hard on the headboard. She stopped
her movements and waited for him to open his eyes. When he did,
she slowly lowered her mouth and licked him. Even before she
made contact he was gasping for air.
as she swirled her tongue around his tip. She held his hips
and took him fully into her mouth. He moaned, his hands tangling
in her hair when he lightly felt her teeth. She moved faster
on him. He arched into her mouth as he came. She continued until
his body relaxed.
control of his breathing as she stretched out on him. He kissed
her deeply. His hands moved down her back to cup her bottom.
"I love your ass."
silly, but glad you like it."
I love your body."
Why do you think I always want to snuggle when we watch moves?"
growled Nick as he felt her move against him.
she said, sitting up to straddle his stomach.
he replied, enjoying her wetness against his skin.
I want to talk," she teased, shifing to make contact with his
down and kissed him. He rolled her under him. Her legs moved
up to his sides. He slowly started to enter her. He had been
surprised with how tight she was when he had entered her earlier
with his fingers. She shifted under him. "Baby you ok?"
"We'll go slow."
He rubbed his nose against hers. She placed a tiny kiss on his
lips. He began to move again. She loved him for being so gentle.
Her hips began to move to meet his. They both moaned when their
bodies became one.
her face as he began to move. The feeling of being inside her
was incredible. He had never experienced this before. He felt
completely exposed. He saw the feeling reflected in her eyes
and tightened his hold on her. Their lips met and their bodies
began to increase their shared tempo. He moaned when she scraped
her nails down his back. Surprise covered his face as she grabbed
I've always love your ass," she answered his unspoken question.
and continued to push into her. A thin layer of sweat covered
their bodies. Nick was trying so hard to remain gentle.
he asked breathing hard.
have to be so careful now."
"K I don't
want to hurt you."
won't," she said as she gripped him inside.
he moaned. "Do that again."
as she requested and he slammed into her body. She tightened
her legs around him. His lips crushed hers in a searing kiss.
"harder Nick. Please baby."
go of his resolve and began to slam into her completely. The
sound of their bodies coming together joined the sounds of their
she moaned as her body began to shake.
it baby. Let go," he encouraged.
tightened around him inside and out as her climax began. Nick
bucked his hips into her as he too released and his called out
to her. They stayed suspended for a moment then collapsed in
a tangle of limbs. Nick started to move but she tightened her
grip on him.
"K I don't
want to crush you."
Promise. Just stay a moment longer."
tiny kisses on his shoulder and neck as she held him. He felt
her yawn and moved to lie beside her. He folded her into his
embrace. They spooned together.
Birthday Nick," she whispered.
it the best," he stated.
just made love. I've wanted to for so long."
I did too, but didn't know it. Does that make sense?"
does. K I've been waiting for you for so long."
I've loved you for so long. I had to wait for you to let me
in…let me love you."
quiet for a moment as it hit her. She loved him. "I love you
I'm not letting go now that I have you."
let go either."
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