Entry- My it has been an interesting journey. The moon is
hanging high in the sky this night. It is late, well past
the two o'clock hour. I can not sleep, I am restless. My emotions
are running high and mixed as well. Tomorrow we dock in New
Providence. Under normal circumstances, I would be elated
at the process of divesting our cargo for coin. I believe
that taking one more ship will fill my coffers enough to regain
my home. My good name will come in time when I settle with
the demon that took everything from my family and I.
I have come to
know that Ray is an imposter, a woman imposter. My concern
grows for her, my feelings are mixed. One moment I want to
punish the chit for all that has happened aboard this vessel,
the next moment I want to stand and protect the child. Foolishly,
yet slowly she is letting her guard down around me. I am slightly
more confident after the last two days of training that she
can protect herself long enough for someone to come to her
aid. I still feel the inner need to extract a confession and
punishment from the girl. Nicholas will also need to be punished
for he is as guilty as she. The punishment that I have set
out will serve my needs and still accomplish my goal.
I have serious
concerns how to handle the docking since I will need to keep
an eye on both Ray and Nickolas. I am in fear that the two
will escape from me and the safety that I provide. Neither
of them fully understand what they have done or what lies
in the real world for them. Perhaps I have protected Nick
far to long but I am not ready to accept his ability to stand
on his own. Or possibly, it may be that I live in fear that
my young charge will leave me and I will be alone once again.
I have taken precautions so both of them will be watched by
Brian, Howard, or myself.
I will also entrust
Alexander when he re-boards, before he takes over the Lady
J., there are many things that I need to discuss with my Quartermaster.
I need to find a replacement for him. I'm sure that Nickolas
and I will get into a quarrel about him wanting the task.
Nick does not have the heart to extract punishment from any
human being. Alexander has the unique ability to extract pain
and yet show confessions. I have thought about asking him
to stay on until the task of Ray and Nickolas is settled but
that would be unfair to him, he is finally the Captain of
his own vessel and he has a new bride. Perhaps something will
come to me when the time comes.
The night grows
late and I will close for now. I sit and watch the two sleeping
in my cabin. One I want to throttle for his dishonesty, the
other, well I would like nothing more than to take to my bed
and take what I need and want. For now, I retire trying to
map out my intentions.
Captain Kevin S
Ray walked about
the deck and saw the excitement building in the crew. All
of them wanted to dock as soon as possible. She watched the
towlines to the Lady J tightened as the ships were pulled
together. They were now side by side bouncing on the water.
Alex jumped from the Lady J to Kevin's ship. Standing on deck
next to Kevin, Ray jumped back. A.J. embraced Kevin in a huge
bear hug, yelling, "Thank you, thank you, thank you."
The crew laughed
loudly but quickly stopped when J.C. also boarded Kevin's
vessel. Her eyes met Kevin's and Ray stepped further back.
She was avoiding getting into the middle of any argument that
would take place. Gingerly J.C. stepped forward and placed
a kiss on Kevin's cheek.
Brian stood back
and watched Ray's face change from fear to anger. "Oh
no," he groaned as Howie joined him. Ray's face indicated
jealousy, but it quickly left.
J.C.," Kevin smiled with amusement at the red headed
Letting out a loud
huff, she inclined her head towards Kevin, "You win.
You were right."
I was," Kevin's smug face looked down at hers. "Now
behave yourself and don't get into anymore trouble."
J.C. grinned as she reached to clasp A.J.'s hand.
Howie and Brian
joined the small group on the deck. "Congratulations
A.J. you now have your own ship."
A.J. nodded in
agreement, as he squeezed J.C.'s hand. "We have our own
were you J.C.?" Kevin chuckled.
J.C. smiled and
fluttered her lashes at Kevin.
Kevin snorted. A deal had been struck between the two and
he would learn of it soon, he was sure. Alexander was one
who never could keep his mouth closed.
Ray stood back
knowing what the conversation was insinuating, it disgusted
her. She began to think that all of the men on this ship had
only breeding on their minds. Making her way to the quarterdeck,
she watched the dolphins break the water and hoped that New
Providence would show in the distance soon. She had planned
to slip off the ship late this evening when all were sleeping.
The Captain had already told her that he had plans for the
evening to see a friend, a dear, old woman friend. Ray felt
her skin crawl at the thought, there was no doubt in her mind
what kind of old friend the woman was. Another Jocelyn, she
was sure. After seeing Nickolas with Kevin, she knew that
she couldn't involve him with her plan. Nickolas had been
wonderful to her and their plans of doing anything in the
future together could not happen, she could see that now.
Nick belonged with Kevin and no one else. It was a tie that
she was not willing to break, Nick needed Kevin.
land soon," Brian offered as he stood next to her. Turning
around he did not miss Kevin searching the ship for Ray. When
he saw that she was with Brian, Kevin relaxed and continued
"I have never
seen a foreign place. It's so warm here." Ray ignored
him and watched the animals continue to follow the ship.
Brian nodded in
agreement; he needed to impart some wisdom on Ray. "You
need to understand that when Kevin discovers all of our deceit
that there will be repercussions."
Ray swallowed the
lump in her throat, "I do understand
precautions to protect all of you."
Brian had a feeling
he knew what she was thinking. After his conversation last
night with Kevin, he also knew that Kevin was scrutinizing
every move Ray and Nick made to avoid any attempt of either
of them leaving him. "Running from Kevin will serve no
purpose other than to cause him to seek you out Ray."
she seethed the words out as her anger spewed, "He can
seek, but he will not find."
Brian shrunk back
from Ray, he was taken by surprise by the tone and her heat
in her words. Shaking his head slowly, he tried to make her
understand. "He will find you and it will not be pretty.
You can not best him at this game Ray. You do not understand
that he is in a current state of confusion. He is attracted
to you, yet he does not know that you are a female. For him
to find out and you to escape, it will only heighten his drive
to find you and prove a point." Leaning forward he whispered
in her ear, "I know that is something that I do not want
you do endure. Kevin has pride, male pride."
Ray's entire body
shook from Brian's words. She remembered Kevin and Jocelyn's
coupling and the noises that came from the room. No, it was
not something that she wanted to endure, at all. "I don't
know what else to do
I'm worried about Nickolas."
Hearing those words,
Brian thought perhaps Ray could be reasoned with. "Howard
and I have tried to think of ways to get you back home to
Jocelyn. We believe we have enough money to buy you safe passage
back home if there is a ship available."
"I have no
need to go back home. The only thing waiting for me there
are dirty pots and a filthy kitchen. I can make more of myself
here." Ray wasn't about to go back to being a scullery
maid for Edmund. Yes, she missed Jocelyn but this could be
a whole new life for her. She would no longer be under anyone's
rule or guidance.
Providence accepts women as business owners. However, you
are barely a woman. It would be too dangerous for you to go
out on your own." Brian was imploring her to think twice
about what she had planned. He feared for her safety, she
would not survive on the streets of New Providence.
Ray had heard enough
of Brian's advice. "I will do what I need to do. I will
not stand by and let Nick be punished for his kindness. Nor
will I let any of you fall out of favor with him because of
listen," Brian clenched his teeth together. He could
not fathom who was worse to deal with, Kevin or Ray. "If
you make any attempts now he will be on you and it will be
much worse. You will surely be discovered."
Ray paused hearing
someone other than Nick use her birth name for the first time.
"Brian, I am not dim-witted. Do you think that I don't
know what Kevin will do to me when he discovers that I am
a female? He is like any other man, he will bed me and then
toss me aside. Nick and I have discussed this. I will not
be dominated, nor will I concede to a man that would treat
a woman in such a manner. I hear the talk of the crew. The
entire time they we are docked in New Providence, they are
going to be doing one thing, satisfying their lusts."
Brian didn't know
whether to laugh or cry. Evidentially Ray had heard the crew
talking entirely too much. What bothered him more was that
Nick and Ray had had a discussion in regards to Kevin. "What
did Nickolas talk to you about Kevin, if you were to be discovered?"
Ray's face flamed
red, "That I would be flat on my back in the Captain's
Bed. Whether it be my choice or not."
is what would happen. I think you have forgotten your station
in life..." Brian faced the deck; Ray was facing the
opposite direction. Brian could see Kevin becoming restless
with the two of them talking so close. "Off with you
for here he comes."
Ray stepped away
only to hear Kevin's thunderous roar of her name caused her
Taking the steps
two at a time, he joined Brian and Ray. "We need to review
the accounting. We will be docking soon and I will not have
time them. I want to be sure that your figures are accurate."
Ray whispered and began to walk away. She let out a small
yelp when a large hand locked onto her forearm. Quickly spinning
she almost broke the grasp only to be jerked closer to his
body, yet still not touching.
you boy, don't try a thing. You still owe me for a passage."
Kevin glared down into the young face. He couldn't take much
longer to reveal him, it was driving him crazy. Kevin couldn't
stand to see her standing with any man, not even his cousin.
I was your Cabin Boy," Ray growled back.
Kevin snarled back at her. "You are part of this crew
and the journey is not yet over. We still have to journey
home and you will remain with us. I have lost my Quartermaster
and I will not lose my Cook and Cabin Boy as well." Kevin
dropped Ray's arm and stormed away.
Brian looked towards
the land that was becoming clearer and clearer in the distance.
"It is obvious what you plan to do. Please be careful
and do not go forth with it. He is beyond reasoning with now."
Leaving her to think, Brian walked away.
The closer the
land became the more Ray thirsted for her freedom. Kevin had
continued his fit as they drew closer to docking. She did
as he requested and returned to the cabin to review the numbers.
Hearing the cheering and commotion, she knew they had finally
reached their destination. Standing on Kevin's bed, she looked
out the porthole. All she saw was water and other ships, no
glimpse of land whatsoever.
"If you go
above deck you will see more," Kevin stood in the doorway.
Ray jumped quickly
off the bed, upset at being caught and knowing that he had
already threatened her once today. She didn't need to give
him more reasons to focus on her. "Sorry Sir," she
dropped her head so as not to have to look him directly in
A hand wrapped
around her chin and tilted her head up so that she had to
look at him. "I'm sorry I yelled at you child. You didn't
deserve my anger. I am nervous about getting rid of our wares
and getting home safely."
Ray whispered. Her body seemed to like the feeling of his
hand on her face. The way Kevin was looking at her made her
feel safe and secure, not angry and afraid as he normally
did. The hand slowly left her face and she had to stop herself
from sighing loudly. She watched him shave and change his
clothes. She was fussing on the inside, she felt that she
shouldn't be watching yet she couldn't stop herself from doing
Grabbing a dress
coat and heading for the door, he turned back to his young
charge. "Clean yourself up and put clean clothes on.
Nick told me that you do rather well on the market so you
are going to join me."
Ray waited for
the door to close and she kicked the chair, an opportunity
had escaped her. "Damn! Now I have to wait," she
kicked the chair again and succeeded in only hurting her foot.
Kevin smiled from
the other side of the door hearing her. "Oh Ray, you
need to get much smarter than I before you think that you
can flee from me. I have big plans for you girl."
Kevin reached the
top of the stairs of the main deck. "Nickolas!"
he shouted and continued to shout until Nick appeared before
him. "Where have you been?" Kevin eyed Nick's clean
dress and kept up appearance.
I could go with you," Nick practically danced. Usually
A.J. was the one to go with Kevin.
"Aye you will
whelp, but along with Ray and Alex." Kevin grinned at
him, knowing that his remark would take the wind of Nick's
Nick shuffled his feet.
"A.J. is going to make sure that J.C. gets her fair share."
Nick frowned back,
"You wouldn't cheat J.C. Why is Ray going?"
Nick had taken
the hook, now it was time to sink it. "You told me once
that Ray helped you get the goods for our journey. If the
boy is well versed in quality and value, then he will be indispensable
why am I going?" Nick wouldn't question Kevin's decision,
if he did, it might hint to what Ray truly was.
because I want you to be with me and learn Alex's duties,"
Kevin smiled and waited for the whooping and hollering to
begin. His grin increased when Nick contained his excitement
like a true businessman. "Very good Nicholas, very good.
Now we wait on Ray. I swear that boy needs a ladies maid."
Kevin leaned over the side of the ship so that Nick couldn't
see his smirk but he didn't miss Nick gasping for air at the
Once Ray had appeared,
they disembarked from the ship. Kevin repeated his orders
to his men to keep a close eye on J.C. and her crew. If she
slipped her moorings and was not present when they returned,
there would be hell to pay for all of them.
Alex waited on
shore, with J.C. in tow. "I guess that solves one of
my problems," Kevin mumbled to himself. He didn't want
a woman involved in this. In his mind 's eye, he could foresee
the penny-ante squabbles that would break out over pricing
and such. Then his eyes landed on Ray. How ridiculous that
some things to attend to," A.J. offered Kevin. Kevin
wouldn't be pleased to have J.C. along during negotiations.
"She is to
take Shamus with her, that way I know she will return."
A.J. smirked, "She'll
return, I have her ship."
J.C. tromped off
with Shamus as her guard walking next to her.
Ray watched the
goings on about the street. The warmth of the sun, the air
smelled fresh and sweet and no longer like salt. The colors
were amazing and she sighed slightly. Nick elbowed her to
bring her back to them. Jolted she became aware of the present
this accomplished please; I have plans for the evening."
Kevin spoke as his intentions for the evening rolled around
in his head.
Alex once again
shook with laughter, "No doubt what those are either."
you haven't gotten the ship yet. You haven't been discharged
you're your duties or your articles."
A.J. winked at him.